Jan 29, 2016
Someone asked me a while back what my resolutions are for the new year, and I told her that I do not believe in making them as I know for certain I will fail by the end of the first month. I don’t know how many times I had tried with good intentions to have a change or improvement for the coming year, and the well written plans would always end up in the garbage or tucked away somewhere in a drawer.
However this year I aimed to try a new thing. It is not a resolution ( even though it might sound like it) but more of a choice. It is to see things from a different perspective. Each night I am to put a slip of paper in a jar and on it I am to write down a blessing from God, or how I see Him in my life that particular day.
I have to say that it was relatively easy the first week of January, but as I got busy and distracted by other things it got a little bit difficult to come up with something to write. Someone said it usually takes 40 days to develop a good habit, and only three days to get into a bad one and I am glad to say I am almost half way to that important timeline. To “encourage” myself to be on track, I had put the jar on top of my dresser so I can see it right away whenever I walk into my bedroom. Sometimes when I am too lazy to put in my daily contribution, that jar seemed to have developed eyes all of a sudden and stare at me until I “feed” it.
There have been days filled with all sorts of negative emotions and the jar definitely has helped me not to be consumed but turn them off long enough to search for one good thing out of a seemingly difficult day. Yesterday was one of those ugly days, it started off rainy and depressing and I had to drag myself into the car to go to work. The rest of the day was pretty well the same, dreary and unmotiviating, but then as I drove up the hill in late afternoon, my heart skipped a beat when I saw the sky. The rain had finally stopped, and the clouds started to part and in a far corner there was a hint of a beautiful rainbow and it reminded me that whatever storm I might be going through, His promises always stands.
This is not a resolution, I am not starting something new but to make a daily choice to see things differently. It is to stop long enough each day and get off the hamster wheel to look around to find my burning bush.
I think this is going to be quite an interesting year.