Today we released 10 blue balloons into the sky.  It is our way to commemorate the 10th anniversary of his passing with his favorite color.

A lot had happened in the last decade: the family celebrated graduations, weddings and births.  And sadly said goodbyes to couple of our beloved members. During these occasions his absence was particularly felt as that vacancy in our lives will never be filled.

The other day a good friend asked me how I am doing as this day approaches.  Ever since then I have been doing some reflecting, mainly asking myself how have I been changed, or grown since the beginning of this journey. To honor his memory I have decided to challenge myself to list 10 things I have learned….one for each year:

1. I have learned that my cup is not half empty nor half full.  My cup is overflowing  with His grace and mercy, as He pours out blessings upon me daily.

2. Adversities will either make you a better or bitter person, the choice is up to me.

3. I have discovered that “you will get over it” is a myth.  For you will never get over a loss, but will get on with life.  After all these years, I have slowly learned to live my life differently.

4. I have learned that  peace means  I am able to rest in the eye of the storm, the winds might be howling, the waves might be high but I know that Jesus is right there in the middle of it all.

5. I  have learned never to stay mad for over a day, for who knows if tomorrow will ever come.

6. I have learned that while I can choose friends whom I want to remain close to, but I cannot do so with family.  I might not like what they have done, but I have to love them regardless.

7. The most important thing to leave behind is my faith legacy.

8. God does His best work in the desert of my life.  He light shines bright in dark and broken places.

9. The best way to show empathy to hurt souls is to sit and cry with them.

10. I might feel lonely, but I am never alone.

The reflection has been a healthy exercise.   I realized I have gathered a number of nuggets over the years, and the above are the ones which stood out.  In the beginning of the journey, I had often questioned God ” Why me?”, and now at this junction of the road I realized I will never understand the reason, but God is the Author of my life, and He has the plot planned out.  He is telling His Story through His children.  Our life situations and circumstances might be different, but the message is the same, it is all about His Love, Redemption and Restoration.



About mamaj

mom with two grown up girls, children pastor, avid knitter, coffee-lover, bear-collector. I love reading, hanging out with my girl friends and yes, I am owned by a golden lab, Jaden.

Posted on April 6, 2015, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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