At 3:30am on July 6, the last thread was woven and her tapestry is finally finished.
As you look at the completed work, you can see mostly dark threads with the occasional bright ones inter-weaved in it. She had a difficult childhood; challenging adult years and an unhappy marriage. Her life was not smooth sailing at all. But through it all, even to the last breath, she showed herself being a person of strength, and definitely a survivor.
Just as the poem says, we cannot choose the colors in our weaving as they are parts of the Big Pattern only to be understood when the canvas is finally unrolled. I used to wonder why her life was so difficult, but now I realized it was only through those challenges her characters were being developed. Now it is no longer about why life was so unfair for her, but how she was able to stand up in face of adversities. I remember recently as I massaged her sore muscles and reminisced about our past. She opened her eyes suddenly and in a no nonsense tone said ” Forget about the past and move on!” That was the very last piece of mom’s advise and one I will cherish forever!
During the time when she was gravely ill, she never once stopped to care for the people in her life. In those brief moments when she was pain-free, she would tell me how much she worried about her children and her siblings. She never once mentioned about her own discomfort. She taught me a very important thing which characterized the essence of Christ’s followers : it is never about us, it is about others—the ones who are created in His image and dearly loved by Him.
Rest in peace mom. The tapestry of your life is the legacy you have given us. I am so grateful that God has given me a mom who had taught me so much through her life, and in her death. I might in the past not willing to listen to your advise, but I will definitely take the last one to heart and continue to move on and make your proud.
“13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead.” Philippians 3:13