I do not believe in making resolutions any more, because they just don’t work for me. Instead I have started to make reflections on the year gone by. To me, progress can only be made if I learned from past mistakes and continue to build on previous successes.
For this new year, I have taken a longer time to reflect. A prolonged flu and a huge pot of chicken noodle soup did help a lot. There is something spiritual about being sick, because you are being forced to rest and of course there is really no place to look but up ! And I have to say the time I spent sick in bed did enhance my thinking process, and God seemed to take His time with me this year as I reflected. One thing I have observed was how much time I had wasted last year by letting things get to me. These things, as I see them now, had no eternal value and only served as distractions. They were like the unwanted weight that I had lugged around and slowed me down tremendously. I am not saying these things were not important, but it was the manner I let them affected me. They diverted my attention, drained my energy, and in the end became unwanted baggage.
Lately there are a lot of advertisement of gyms and other weight loss programs. This is indeed the time for people to shed unwanted fat for cosmetic and health reasons. I figured I too need to get on a weight loss regime, not so much to ‘look’ better but more so for my spiritual health. And here I am referring to those unwanted emotional weight I had gained last year. I realized the most important step in this process is the exercise of focus. I remember during the days as a young mom, I spent many hours at the skating rink; swimming pool ; dance and music studios as the girls kept me busy with their sports and other extra curricular activities. No matter what kind of sports they were involved in they had to learn to focus. Either they were practicing a jump, or perfecting a stroke, or getting ready for the recital, they needed to focus on the task at hand in order to perform well. All those years of their training had finally paid off, because it has taught me the importance of concentrating my attention and energy on my task, that is to seek and build the Kingdom of God.
Now after almost 10 bowls of chicken noodle soup and hours of reflection, I have finally claimed this verse as my prayer in my weight loss program:
“Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, 2 looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.” Hebrews 12:1-2