Nov 25, 2012
My Dearest Daughter:
I still remember holding you for the first time, you were so tiny and so helpless. Ever since that day thirty years ago, my life have changed completely.
I have been thinking of your dad lately, and I cannot imagine what he would have said if he is still alive. One thing for sure, he did not handle old age too well. Even at 50, he was moaning and groaning about it. So can you imagine him now? You are forever his little girl, and you had brought so much joy to his short life. He would have been happy to see his little girl all grown up, but would have been sad because he would feel his age.
I never knew and understood what motherhood was until you came to my world. I often wish that you would’ve come with an “owner’s manual” so I will know how to fix problems and make your life go smoothly and most importantly to be a good mom. But I guess life is not like that, and so many things I have to learn through trials and errors.
Thank you for being my daughter, I have become richer because of you. . Richness can never be measured by the material processions but by the relationships one has, and also by the lessons a person learned in her life, these things can never be bought. Motherhood is a growing process and I can never stopped learning and growing until I leave this world to be with the Lord on the other side of glory. I have learned what it means to be a person, and what God is like, His undying, unconditional love and His boundless grace and mercies. Every time I look at my life as your mother I cannot help but thank God for His wonderful gift.
You are a grown woman now, so independent and completely different from the little girl we once knew and held. You are on your own journey, one that is carved out by you, your dreams and your understanding of your world and who God is to you. Sometimes it gets a little scary and worrisome , but I know you are not travelling alone. Thirty years ago we had placed you in the hands of my loving God and I know without a doubt that He will never leave you nor forsake you. You are forever in His loving care and this knowledge brought me so much comfort and peace.
Your dad and I had taken care of you most of your life, now you have found someone to take over our jobs and some more. I am praying for the two of you every day the same prayers your dad and I have been praying all these years. To me the most important job now is the one that’s done on my knees.
My child, may the Lord bless you and keep you; may the Lord make His face shine on you and be gracious to you; may the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.
Go chase your dreams, my dear.
Love you forever,